I then found myself opening up those old notebooks, re-reading those lists, and while some things did change, a lot didn't. It's the sad (and harsh) truth.
What was I waiting for? Am I not really passionate about those dreams of mine? Am I really just that lazy?
It hit me. Fear. For the most part, it's my own fear that holds me back. Like so many others. Fear of sounding stupid. Or just not saying the right things. Fear of looking ridiculous. Fear of being judged. Fear of failure.
It was just as Paulo Coelho described in The Alchemist; there is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure. If I really stopped for a second and thought about what my dreams really are, I'd notice a voice ringing in the back of my head. It's that voice that's filling me with a fear over something that hasn't even happened yet. And you know what? It may never happen. It's there, poking at my insecurities, knowing exactly what buttons to push. That little voice can be quite the bitch when I come to think of it.
What if we all - together - told that voice to shut the hell up? Who invited her to the party anyway?! What a downer. Let go of those negative thoughts and fears and replace them with encouragement and love. Love for yourself. Because you're an unstoppable force of nature.
If we start loving ourselves unconditionally, could you imagine what could happen? Things worthy of glitter explosions and fireworks so bright, you could see the sparks dancing from space.
I've decided to make a pact, with myself and with you. These type of life-changing events are better shared and supported through a community, don't you think? The next time you dream up something fabulous - something seemingly so far out of reach - and that voice creeps in and tell you, you can't do it, I want you to stare straight back, say "Watch me", and believe it.
If your fears were no longer a factor, what would you do? Better yet - share a time where you've conquered your fears and succeeded, I'd love to hear!